A KNOWLEDGE OF ME

Today is Amaru's b-day!!!! Im Sitting here thinking about this day 4 yrs ago. I remember being at work on break, getting a call from the office saying your girl is going into labor.... I was working at lowes on the graveyard shift. At the time I didn't own a vehicle, so I ran to the manager asking if one of my co-workers could run me to the hospital....  My man Darnell I forget his last name but shout out to him, told me to jump in his car he'll take me. All I remember about the car ride was him asking me how did I feel and that he was flying down 6mile like a mad man, Im positive he got me there in like 10 minutes... We pulled up, I asked was my girl there and thats when I found out that I beat her to the hospital. It was a crazy night for me. Anyways back to today, So Im sitting here with ample amounts of thoughts running through my head, lots of reevaluating going on right now. like what was I doing with my life then compared to now. I have to admit I've made big strides since then, but in the grand scheme of things Im really in the same position as I was then. In the past 4 years I met a couple of good ppl, traveled and grew as a person, but I never created any equity in myself... So it's back to the drawing board for me... I've never been a slouch just the type of guy that needed some inspiration to go all out... I remember being in grade school and trying my best to get better grades than a girl named Raynetta Smith, thats all I cared about because I knew she was on her  shit when it came to grades.... Which brings me to my next thought, I have maybe 3 or 4 friends that really stay on top of their game, I think it's time for a change of comrades!!! Most ppl that I acquainted myself with I think are delusional.... They don't live in reality!! I've always prided myself off of being an humble and loyal dude, and that's where I feel I made my first mistake... I didn't understand the saying "You can't help the poor, if you one of them" I figured if I was a team player, as a team we could pool our resources and make things work in our favor (Poor fella) I had to learn the hard way that you have to do what's best for you, then pull the ppl who want to do something with themselves in after you've built that equity in yourself. Easier said than done when you have ppl that you came up with that's been around forever, but something has to give right about now for your boy... I was talking to a co-worker today about some of the ppl at our job... I mean we're very overpaid for the work we do and it seems like some ppl let the money go to their heads, I came to that conclusion just off the conversations ppl have at work about their personal lives... I couldn't believe a statement that one woman said about a friend of hers... It's like listen, you make what the average person would call nice money But in reality you're not topping out at 40,000 (and that's chump change in my eyes) But you in here castigating your friend.... That's the type of ppl I have to remove from my life!!! cause truth be told I have more  than enough friends like her. Simple minded ppl... Im in it for the long run!!! This shit is 12 rounds, most ppl throw in the towel at 2... Im in the 3rd going into the 4th and I think it's bout time for a new strategy... I think I'll start at reevaluating the ppl in my corner. HAPPY B-DAY AMARU   Salaam ppl