Lately I've been in chill mode just thinking of ways to get ahead. Seems like it's hard to keep everything on the up and up with so many frauds running around. I kind of got stuck on a thought that I had earlier. One thing I've noticed about new artist these days local and major is that, we rarely get a chance to grow with them. Nowadays everybody was the man, had money and all the women before they started making music. It's like these guys never went through the struggle before and if they did, they're far removed from those times. Crazy shit right? I'd have to agree with a statement Ty Farris made on one of his songs off of Champion Hoodies and Hennessy. He said, "Being rich is a myth, I think the whole block broke" It's like these artist are scared to give the people the truth or at least a good amount of the truth. They're hesistant to undress themselves and be proud of what they are in reality. I guess they're not comfortable with who they truly are. (Lol)One thing I've learned in life is that no human is perfect and when you're not afraid to show your vulnerabilty more people fuck with you strictly on the fact that they can relate. We all have the same struggles essentially. In no way is this a "Im the realest nigga ever moment" I just wanted to share my thoughts on the subject. Peace

Now I study Many things especially Public Speakers... I just so happen ran across this conversation, and as I watched I started to thinking about a couple of females that I consider friends. Many times I've thought to myself why do she allow this dude to treat her like that, she has so much potential!! Now I know what majority of you niggas thinking "Nigga my swagg is crazy!!!that's why." And that might be a legitimate arguement... But my question is, Is it your swagg or is it a lack of discipline on the woman's behalf??? It was interesting to me when I listened to this conversation and seen some characteristcs and traits of the men she was talking about in myself and friends... Anyways however you view this piece I think it was a great discussion with lots of good points. P.S Peace to my nigga Camron... This is the same lady from his song "Bottom Of The Pussy Hole"

Today is Amaru's b-day!!!! Im Sitting here thinking about this day 4 yrs ago. I remember being at work on break, getting a call from the office saying your girl is going into labor.... I was working at lowes on the graveyard shift. At the time I didn't own a vehicle, so I ran to the manager asking if one of my co-workers could run me to the hospital....  My man Darnell I forget his last name but shout out to him, told me to jump in his car he'll take me. All I remember about the car ride was him asking me how did I feel and that he was flying down 6mile like a mad man, Im positive he got me there in like 10 minutes... We pulled up, I asked was my girl there and thats when I found out that I beat her to the hospital. It was a crazy night for me. Anyways back to today, So Im sitting here with ample amounts of thoughts running through my head, lots of reevaluating going on right now. like what was I doing with my life then compared to now. I have to admit I've made big strides since then, but in the grand scheme of things Im really in the same position as I was then. In the past 4 years I met a couple of good ppl, traveled and grew as a person, but I never created any equity in myself... So it's back to the drawing board for me... I've never been a slouch just the type of guy that needed some inspiration to go all out... I remember being in grade school and trying my best to get better grades than a girl named Raynetta Smith, thats all I cared about because I knew she was on her  shit when it came to grades.... Which brings me to my next thought, I have maybe 3 or 4 friends that really stay on top of their game, I think it's time for a change of comrades!!! Most ppl that I acquainted myself with I think are delusional.... They don't live in reality!! I've always prided myself off of being an humble and loyal dude, and that's where I feel I made my first mistake... I didn't understand the saying "You can't help the poor, if you one of them" I figured if I was a team player, as a team we could pool our resources and make things work in our favor (Poor fella) I had to learn the hard way that you have to do what's best for you, then pull the ppl who want to do something with themselves in after you've built that equity in yourself. Easier said than done when you have ppl that you came up with that's been around forever, but something has to give right about now for your boy... I was talking to a co-worker today about some of the ppl at our job... I mean we're very overpaid for the work we do and it seems like some ppl let the money go to their heads, I came to that conclusion just off the conversations ppl have at work about their personal lives... I couldn't believe a statement that one woman said about a friend of hers... It's like listen, you make what the average person would call nice money But in reality you're not topping out at 40,000 (and that's chump change in my eyes) But you in here castigating your friend.... That's the type of ppl I have to remove from my life!!! cause truth be told I have more  than enough friends like her. Simple minded ppl... Im in it for the long run!!! This shit is 12 rounds, most ppl throw in the towel at 2... Im in the 3rd going into the 4th and I think it's bout time for a new strategy... I think I'll start at reevaluating the ppl in my corner. HAPPY B-DAY AMARU   Salaam ppl

Prior to October 28, 1998 I was living in Nashville, TN for the past 5 Yrs. The majority of rap music I listened to was Pac, 8ball& MJG, anything that came out from No Limit and lots of local artist from around the Nashville area. I remember moving back home to Detroit in the winter of 98 and enrolling in a school that was located  downtown. The dress code was different, Gucci loafers and Guess was the shit then.( Sorry that had no relevance, but I had never heard of them brands b4 then) I remember conversing with some of the other students about music. 2 names continued to come up in every discussion...... The names where Jay-Z and Nas. Now I was familiar with the names being that I heard Pac mention both on Makaveli, but as far as their music went I was oblivious!!! (funny right??) So around the time that these conversations were going on, Xmas was coming up.... I remember seeing my grandmother on my fathers side for the first time Dec 25, 1998. She came to the house with presents for my sisters and I.... I opened up my present and it was a cd walkman with Jay-Z Vol.2 Hard Knock life. Man I played it religiously for the next couple of months... I thought it was the best present I ever received for Xmas!!! Fast forward.... Im back at school and a guy was telling me about this snippet tape he got for Nas new album I AM.... If you guys remember it was the tape that had Nas snippets on one side and Nature's For Every Season on the other... ( I can't believe I remember Nature's album name smh) I immediately asked if I could borrow the tape, to my displeasure the answer was simply NO. (Fast forward with me one more time) Like a month had pasted, Im sitting on the couch watching videos and BOOM this came across the screenIT FUCKED ME UP YALL!!! Now you have to understand I was 15 going on 16 when this dropped... Me personally, I had never heard anything like it!!! To this day I still wish I could go back to the day and feel the same feeling I felt when I heard Nas for the first time (No Homo) but you get the point. Been one of his biggest fans every since... Just a story I wanted to tell Yall be safe and easy. peace

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